In many ways, I am betwixt and between.
As I begin to poke my head above ground (so to speak) I am trying to figure out what is happening in my brain.
Numerous medical people have assured me that recovery will be months, not weeks. Several have referenced the fact that I am still in the acute state of the bleed, and that I must be patient. The guestimate is a minimum several month recuperation. When it comes to the brain, there is no knowing how long recovery will take.
On the other hand, I have noticed that some things are beginning to resolve, but my speech continues to lag behind. It is obvious that my speech centre is affected, and it's difficult to know how I will be able going to be I will be able to teach. If I ever. By the end of the day I am lagging.
However, I can write (carefully) and I am hoping that I will be able to write - if not articles, at least possibly this blog.
I need to talk to my webmistress and decide if I stop offering Zoom presentations. I cancelled the two presentations that were booked for January and early Feb.
On the other hand, I was able to create a new draft for an article. Whether or not I can actually write anything, only time will tell. Truth to tell, I have only generated a draft - I still need to develop two different drafts, one 8 shafts, one 16 shafts. And of course, the draft might not turn out.
There is much that is unknown. There is much that may not work well. But I still have fibre dreams to I hope to continue to weave. Given I have made a decent draft tonight, it seems that like I can sort of still keep weaving.
I have managed a few light duties this week. If anyone is interested in my books, they are available from Blurb.com. I have some tea towels for sale on Ko-Fi. I'm hoping to have a Xmas sale in December.
Go slowly slowly. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteAgree with Jane - go slowly, slowly. Sending virtual hugs.
ReplyDeleteSlow and steady wins the race. Take it easy. Relax don't fret over the recovery time. Hugs. Prayers. And well wishes. P.s. my towels are gorgeous. I should have ordered more!!
ReplyDeletePlease take all the time you need! Best wishes, Kathrin
ReplyDeleteWill be praying for you. Sending you many hugs and much encouragement.
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ReplyDeleteplease give yourself the gift of grace as you heal.
ReplyDeleteGlad you are back. Take it easy. Brains take time to heal.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Laura, the Wonderful Weaver of Words, for offering this reassuring cloth of comfort (and determination) that we readers can wrap around our worries. I treasure your influence, through your blog and books, on my own life and weaving style (better selvedges, recognition of "sweet spot", ergonomics, valuing curiosity and sharing information). Thank you, Doug, for recognising Laura's need for emergency care. May your rest be healing.
ReplyDeleteI've not had a brain bleed, but I HAVE had major brain surgery to remove a tumor that was immediately adjacent to my brain an on (and crushing) the nerve to my left ear. Aphasia is very real and is so frustrating to deal with. You know the words are there, just where are they? Sounds like? Starts with? Means something adjacent to?
ReplyDeleteHang in there. It will get better. The fact that you are still articulate in writing means that this will likely recover, if not all the way then to an acceptable degree. Be kind to yourself! Nerves and pathways take a long time to heal. But you will feel better.....