Stubborn

Last spring a young friend asked me how on earth I managed to finish the thesis/monograph for the Master Weaver certificate.  She was struggling to finish her thesis for a degree.

Since she was an athlete I figured I would use a metaphor that she could relate to and told her that it was just like running a marathon - when you hit the wall you just keep on going.

There are many times in my life I have wanted to throw in the towel (another sport metaphor!) and give up on something but rarely have I done so.  I'm not talking about little things - a warp that has gone badly awry, for instance - in that case I'm only too happy to use the scissor solution!
 
I'm talking about the big things, the things that matter, deeply.  The things that are, by their very nature, difficult, daunting and at times, may seem nearly impossible.

But I'm stubborn.  I find it mildly amusing that a character fault (according to my mother who frequently wondered where I got my stubbornness from) seems to have morphed into a positive attribute!

Generally just about when I'm ready to toss in the towel, a friend will remind me of what achieving the goal means.  They will help me see that yes, I can get up and get going again.  But it is my choice.  It is always about choice.

Having a research project to look forward to for post-recovery has given me fresh energy and incentive to get things done.  To look forward with enthusiasm rather than dread.  To focus on the after, not the during.  Because once again, this is temporary, I will get through it.  And while the road is going to be a bit bumpy for a while, it is just a small part of the journey.

So a big thank you to my family and friends who remind me of who I really am.  And of what I would like to accomplish as a person and as a weaver/teacher.

Currently reading Common Ground by Justin Trudeau.