This cold has really knocked the stuffing out of me. Normally I will weave for 45 minutes before taking a break - not because I'm tired but because I know it is good for my body.
The past few days I have been weaving on the AVL - just one towel at a time - then taking a break. This morning I wove one towel on the smaller Leclerc and after one towel I was tired. Normally I weave 2 and a half towels before taking a break, but not today. I can't believe how weak I am although truth be told, it has been nearly a month since I have done any 'serious' weaving. Don't use it? Lose it!
On the other hand, I have had plenty of time to think. One of the things I have been thinking about, of course, is The Book. The one I intend to (keep) writing.
Several things have happened over the course of the past few weeks which have called me to really think about and clarify what I am trying to do and why I am trying to do it.
With so many beginning type books already available, I feel that rather than simply add more to the heap of knowledge on that pile, I want to try to go beyond 'beginning'. My goal has always been to try and explain the 'why' of weaving (as best I am able), not just the what.
I already know that an ebook isn't going to garner the type of sales a 'real' book will. Weaving shops won't carry it, it won't get wide distribution, I don't have a big advertising budget. So sales will be low anyway. My expectation of sales? Not very high.
This will be more of a specialist presentation, not of interest to many, just a few.
Then I read an article about 'best selling' books. The definition was 1 million sales.
Do I aspire to be a 'best' seller? No. Not at all.
The weaving community is tiny in comparison to the general population. The percentage of people who weave who will be interested in what I have to say will be a tiny slice of that tiny population.
So what are my aspirations? Do I want to sell the book? Yes, of course. Weaving is my career. I earn money by teaching and writing about weaving - of course I want to make sales.
My aspirations boil down to this: I hope that by sharing my experiences and whatever I know about weaving to assist others in their explorations.
I do not pretend to know all the answers. I don't even know all the questions. Because weaving - the creation of textiles using a loom with warp and weft - is huge. Gigantic. Mix in all the different fibres, the different types of equipment, the different qualities of cloth and the exploration of even a tiny part of the craft can take a lifetime. It has certainly taken mine. I was 25 when I decided to become a weaver. I have been a weaver for 40, going on 41 years.
And I still learn. I still make mistakes. I still find weaving endlessly fascinating. Right now I seem to be in a bit of a holding pattern in terms of learning. I've been sticking to the tried and true - for the most part. And that's ok, too.
Life goes through rough patches, smooth patches, detours and scenic routes. And it is all good. It is all life.