Monday, September 16, 2013

Adulthood


rayon chenille warp


rayon chenille stash

When I was a child I could hardly wait to grow up, be an adult, be....free.

The problem is, there is just exactly as much freedom when you are an adult as when you are a child.

You still have obligations, responsibilities...stuff you'd rather not do but must.

Being all grown up means that you finally understand that life isn't fair and it isn't free.  If you want something you have to work for it, one way or another.

Being an adult means that you must engage your own sense of responsibility, not rely on a parent or boss to remind you of what needs doing and when it needs to be done by.

You are in charge of your schedule, your long range goals, your success at meeting your deadlines.

So this week I'm going to practice being an adult.  In spite of the fact I am tired of making scarves, I still need some at a lower price range than what I have been making.  In spite of the fact I really don't much want to work with rayon chenille, I have a full shelving unit full of the stuff.  In fact, the two boxes beside the shelf are also full of rayon chenille.  In spite of the fact I don't have the range of colours I would like to have to work with, I am going to use the limitation of colours as a design inspiration and do the very best I can with what I have on hand and use up some of this yarn!

And, because I am practicing to be an adult, I will do it with the best grace I can manage, be happy I'm not spending yet more money on yarn, that I'm using up stuff I paid for many years ago, that I will be reducing my stash.  And I will choose to be happy about that, not resentful because I would really rather be doing something else entirely....

8 comments:

Rhonda from Baddeck said...

That's a lot of rayon chenille! As you see your stash dwindle and inventory increase, I hope you'll feel rewarded. I have all sorts of plans for when I get my stash unpacked - it will be time to get adventurous rather than rely on "what I've always done."

Sandra Rude said...

Oh, boy, I know how that feels! I'at the point of deciding that from now on I'll only weave what I want to. Which means that a large part of the stash will need to find a new home or three. Probably more...

Laura Fry said...

Hi Sandra, like you I have tons of stuff (and I do mean that literally) that I'm not really interested in using any more. This coming year I'm going to concentrate on using some of it up. And the rest may have to run away from home! :)
cheers,
Laura

Boomer Knows said...

Rock on! I read it aloud to a teenager, the mood isn't receptive. Ah to be young & oblivious, LOL!

Teena Tuenge said...

What about having your dyer add some color to neutrals you might have.
Or discharge some color?
I did woven shibori on some tan chenille with indigo and it was great. Too much work for a scarf for sale, but dyeing the warps or scrunch dyeing the scarves afterward might work. Interesting colors with overdyes and they can unify a color range.
Teena Tuenge

Brenda said...

Wonderful post. Truly enjoyed reading your well-considered thoughts.

I know whereof you speak, begin conscious at work to not be resentful working on projects that I dislike, ever reminding myself that sooner tackled, sooner done.

Weave on, weaver.

Deanna said...

Your message hit the heart of the matter. I have been struggling with spending the time I need to on my job. There I said it, it is a job and I need to work on it.

Swanknitter said...

Ah yes, dreaming of being an adult, "when I could do anything I wanted to." As far as when I go to bed and what I eat for dinner, it's come true to a certain extent. But there are always the pressures of the external world, even when you are retired.