Friday, February 24, 2012
Feeling a Wee Bit Guilty
A friend calls my sitting at the loom weaving my 'happy place'. I'm taking full advantage of that today.
This green warp is perfect - a complete no-brainer. It's just a straight twill for the towel body and plain weave for the hems. Although I count the picks for the hem, the towel is measured using my handy dandy ribbon measuring tape and I don't have to think at all.
Which is very good for me today as we are still on tenterhooks about mom. She passed a 'rough' night last night so they are keeping her for one more day and will discharge her tomorrow.
In the meantime I'm still waiting for a phone call from WestJet to see when we can get her on a plane to come home. Until I have a firm arrival date, there is nothing else I can do and everyone involved in her care has to wait.
I'm not good at waiting so having this very simple warp - all 11 meters of it - to work on today while I'm waiting is a god send.
I am also struggling with guilt. Guilt that I am hitting the highway on Tuesday morning, come sun or snow and I'm not coming back until the 25th or 26th of March (depending on highway conditions). Everything that can be done for mom's care has been done and ultimately she will recover in her own time in her own way whether I'm here or not so I confess I'm actually relieved I'll be away for a while. And then I feel guilty all over again.
Better to just leave and put my mind on my 'happy' things, like weaving and teaching weaving. The stuff that I can make a difference about - and leave mom to get on with her healing....
The good news is that it looks like the house sale will go through so that will be one less thing to worry about for everyone, especially Doug who has been doing the bulk of the Mr. Fix-it jobs on it for years. :)