5.5 weeks

 

Late last week we were contacted about getting the assessment for what I'm facing ahead of me.  Since I had been slowly getting the rest of the warp I'd left on the loom ready, I managed to get it sleyed and tied on over the weekend.  This morning I prepped the warping draft for tea towels, and I'm hoping to take the therapist down to the studio to see what it is I used to be able to do.  If I can at least weave, that will go towards feeling like I'm 'normal'.

Face it, I have done a lot of different weaves over the years.  And I am pretty sure I can do at least simple things, if nothing else.  

My 'voice' still fails me.  I suspect it will keep me from teaching in person, remotely.  

I have heard conservatively about two years to...recover...and face it, I may never to make it to where I was before.  OTOH, several medical folk are telling me I've been very lucky, so who knows?

Did I have more I wanted to do?  I'm sure that I did.  I'd just engaged to write some articles.  But do I 'need' to?  Who knows?  (At least those two got done - can I do more now?  Dunno.)

For all the health challenges I've experienced - cardio stents, living with cancer, triple by-pass, more cancer (the type of cancer I have doesn't just go 'away' - usually), then damage to my lower spine etc., well, I truly thought I didn't deserve any more physical ailments.

Apparently not.

Maybe it is well and truly time to 'retire'.

(Nearly) 5 weeks

 

Working on a little bit of weaving - something I started thinking the one before my fall.

(I feel like calling it My Fall - because it is...definitive and possibly life changing...)

I'm of some two minds (heh) about whether or not I will do is for this project.  I've gotten it to the point of getting it to the stage where it *may* be decided - or not.  The likely that it is necessary to, so I will have to continue to get it to 'work' if I want it to.  The two years that folk are being quoting that are change difference, if at least I haven't lost all my potential to weave.  My 'brain power' is not only just in my speech, but the craft tends to drill way far down deeper that just a within the speech centre of the brain.   The knowledge is so much more that the speech, even if I cannot no longer teach, I am pretty sure I will be able to continue to weave.

The next two days are 'busy' (given my capacity to be 'busy') but physically.  Friends have told me to pay attention and rest.

Everyone who knows anything at all is telling me to rest, heal.  Not rush back to the loom.  

To that end, the cards, bouquets and messages have encouraging.  I don't see the surgeon until the end of the month, and I hope that I will find out more of how my recovery will shape my future.  I will be removing the Zoom presentations from my website as soon as my webmistress has the time.  While my voice is beginning to gather strength, I don't want to stress myself.  I never know were will my voice end, and when...it doesn't.