Recovery

 

bin of yarns to choose from

Recovery from any kind of injury is a test of patience.  For someone who has as little patience as me, it is a long distance marathon.

The various medical people I dealt with after the brain bleed all told me to expect a 2 year recovery arc.  The surgeon confirmed that.  When we discussed my speech, he cautioned me that I might never reach 100% recovery, but since I was making such a good recovery immediately after the surgery, he predicted that I would come close, if not entirely.  

Given my age, I assume that part of that equation is aging further. One can only expect one's brain to start to develop a few loose screws as the years march on?

But I have made progress in my writing.  It's still not 'great'.  Especially if I try to write in the evening or late afternoon.  I get 'tired' and chunks fall out of my head (it feels like) so I try to do the majority of my writing in the morning.

I continue to make progress physically, and that makes me feel more 'normal'.  Plus I can weave long enough I can generate endorphins, which is helpful to keep me feeling productive.  I have had to radically alter my daily goals, but I was having to do that because of the spine/back injuries in the first place.  This injury made that imperative.

I suppose I should celebrate the fact that Life didn't give me a swift kick in the arse, but in the head?  Spread the injuries around?

Yesterday I heard from the magazine.  I now have the contract for the autumn issue, which I already have in hand.  I am giving myself a respite time to just weave for the rest of the warp, and continuing thinking about the next set of samples.  I think I have them sorted out now so all I need to do is submerge myself in the 'zone' and weave for the next week or so.

I am also discussing an article for the winter issue but I need to do some yarn sourcing to do what they want done.  It's a variation of what I had proposed, and once again, it is something that I've never had the time to explore in any depth, although I want to.  What's not to love about having someone ask me to take a deep dive in a pool I've long looked at - and indeed done superficial experimentation about?

Learning new stuff is what has always excited me about weaving.  To keep learning, to have the time to take deep dives down rabbit warrens I know exist but have never had the time to rummage through?  I could get used to this...