When working on a Big Project it can sometimes feel as though you are dealing with a log jam. There doesn't seem to be any way to make progress, everything is a jumble. There doesn't seem to be a way through - over or under, left or right.
But you keep working at it, one log at a time. Deal with this one. Move that one. Resolve this other one.
My life has been one log jam after another. Every warp seems to take on aspects of a jam - until it is free and clear.
Every design, twisted this way and that. Consider this thing and that. Choose this over that other.
Eventually? Eventually it flows again. It becomes smooth again.
It feels perilous at times. In the case of Magic, I was asking a pretty big price, but I had to in order to pay the bills. Would anyone be willing to pay what I was asking?
Initially I thought that the main audience for Magic would be guilds but in the end it was individuals who ante'd up the money and bought personal copies. One person bought two - one for herself, one to loan to trusted friends.
Over the years I've organized conferences - and dealt with more log jams. People wouldn't answer questions, or posed them. Details had to be dealt with. Other people needed to be called in to help. Projects that could not be done by just one person so, many hands made light work.
After many years of juggling deadlines, marketing myself, I got tired. So I finally decided to step back (somewhat) from what I had been doing.
After publishing Magic I declared that there would never be another book. And yet...