Snowflake

 

I made it to the halfway point of the 2nd scarf today.  The photo doesn't really do the colour justice.  The grey is shiny, more like metal.  Silver.  Or steel.

The opposite side of the cloth is a 'negative' of this side - where the cloth is white, it's grey and vice versa.  

Part of the reason I wanted to examine my life more closely was because I was dealing with several chronic health issues.  For the chronic pain I was assured that people with chronic pain will tend to have less pain if they have therapy and examine their lives more closely.

I've never been one to shy away from taking a deep dive, but I was pretty much doing it on my own.  At the ripe old age of 75+, I decided it was time for me to get an outside perspective.  Again.  Because I couldn't trust my own, anymore.

The therapist I'm seeing is kind and gentle, and carefully checks in with me to make sure that what we are discussing is - balanced - I could say.  I particularly wanted to look at my birth trauma, long buried, never truly examined for the harm that I had stuffed down and out of sight.

So she is careful to make sure that I'm okay.

As we talked today I mentioned that weaving is full of life lessons, and that life can be examined through the lens of weaving.  I suggested that cloth is not just the warp, or just the weft - that only once the warp and weft are interlaced together that you get cloth.  And that I felt that the concepts we had been discussing - integrating the various 'parts' of ourselves - could be thought of in the same way.  That only when the various 'parts' of a human are woven together - integrated - can we be 'whole'.

We talked about that for a while, and I have been given homework again.  

As I was weaving this afternoon, looking at this snowflake in the colour of metal, I began to think of how the alt right throws the accusation of 'snowflake' at the more left leaning among us.  But snow is not just 'fragile'.  When it comes in blizzards, or avalanches, it is a force to be reckoned with.

I wonder if there is a punk rock band called the Steel Snowflake.  I'd listen to them...